Full-Blown Suffering: My Struggle Against the Mysterious Pain of Cluster Headaches
It began on a overcast weekday in the morning in the autumn of 2016. I worked as a teacher, attempting to manage a new group of students, when a sudden sensation bloomed behind my one eye. This was followed by quick jolts, like lightning bolts. As each class progressed, the pain eased and then returned with increased intensity. Multiple times that day I left a colleague with activities and ran to the staff bathroom to douse my face with cold water. I tried aspirin, but the agony remained unrelenting.
The attacks returned repeatedly that fall, and again in the spring, soon forming an yearly cycle. September and October were the worst, then the late winter. I could anticipate the routine: aura in the shower, early pangs on the train, full-on pain in class by 9.30am. In 2019, a doctor eventually referred me to a neurologist and I was diagnosed with cluster headaches.
Cluster headaches typically begin with severe pain behind one eye that lasts up to three hours.
About 1 in 1000 people are affected by the disorder, and men are more often diagnosed. Attacks usually start with sudden, excruciating agony around a single eye that peaks within a short time and lasts for as long as three hours. Attacks occur in cycles, every day or several times a day, and are accompanied by tearing eyes, drooping eyelids or facial sweating. I have an episodic type, which arrives in seasonal bouts; some patients have chronic attacks, characterized by the absence of extended pain-free periods.
What unites patients is the severity. One study rated the sensation at 9.7 out of 10, more severe than broken bones or pancreatitis. Another discovered a significant percentage of cluster patients reported suicidal thoughts amid bouts; the figure dropped to four percent when they were pain-free.
One patient, in her seventies, a chronic sufferer from Wales, isn't surprised. Her episodes started when she was two. “I would hurl myself on the floor and hit my head. That was put down to being spoiled,” she says. Her condition worsened through her youth. Alcohol in her adolescence, similar to many triggers, made things worse. After having alcohol at her school leaving party, she recalls barely being able to see on the transport home.
Her family often interpreted her attacks as drunken episodes. Understanding finally came from her father and then from her partner, Rod. “I was very lucky to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs took clerical work after relocating, but often hid her condition. She was dismissed from one job, in part due to time off during attacks. Her breakthrough identification came in the early 2000s at a specialist hospital.
Nevertheless, the failure to organize life around unpredictable pain took its toll. She especially hated being unable to plan outings, being seen as flaky as a colleague, and even having to be cared for by her family during the incapacitation caused by the worst episodes. “It robs you of the simple freedoms we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She recalls obtaining tickets for a major concert, only to have an episode inside a facility.
Headaches have been documented throughout the ages. “The first account of headache comes by way of the ancient civilizations in 4000BC,” write authors in a publication on the topic. They linked the disease to an evil entity who afflicted his sufferers' heads.
Historical medical records propose unusual treatments for what some observers would describe as a migraine. In the middle ages, migraine was identified as a separate disorder, with treatments ranging from herbal concoctions to other, more folk cures.
It was a European doctor who provided the initial comprehensive description of a cluster headache. In his writings, he describes a patient “afflicted with a very severe headache happening and vanishing each day at fixed hours”.
Cluster headaches were only officially recognised by global medical societies in 1988. From the 1960s to the late 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a problem with a major artery which delivers blood to the head. Prominent experts in treating the disorder note this.
In the late 1990s, scientists published the findings of a research project for which they had triggered attacks in patients and observed the attacks in a brain scanner. The data, published in a major journal, showed activation of the a brain region, which is responsible for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in pain, and a deactivation when they felt better.
In spite of such progress, identification remains slow. Jamie Charteris's attacks started in the 1980s and felt like “a modelling balloon being blown up behind my one eye”. GPs thought he had a sinus issue; he underwent multiple operations before finally being diagnosed in recently, after a physician looked up his symptoms.
Specialists say wait times in diagnosis and treatment happen because patients are rarely seen during an episode. “You're tired and low, but not in agony,” one says. He proceeds by eliminating other common headache disorders, such as migraine, before confirming cluster headaches. A detailed history is crucial: on which part of the head do symptoms occur? For how much time? What season? Are there triggers, such as certain foods? Specific characteristics such as tearing, drooping eyelids and stuffy nose help verify the diagnosis. Once identified, patients may be referred to dedicated clinics. But many first arrive to emergency rooms or are given unsuitable treatments.
A charity trustee, 78, has experienced the condition for most of her adult life, although she hasn't had an episode since recent years. When she was in her 20s, she had her molars extracted because dental professionals misunderstood her pain. She thinks the dental profession still need greater awareness. When another patient sought help from a charity, it was Chapman who replied. The author recalls calling a support line during an attack in 2021; a calm advisor talked me through oxygen treatment and drugs until the attack passed.
National guidance on management advise that sufferers are offered high-flow oxygen therapy and/or a specific drug delivered by nasal spray. No tablets or strong analgesics should be used. Preventive options include verapamil, which reportedly soothes the attacks of some individuals.
But leading neurologists believe the official guidelines need revising to reflect a more defined clinical pathway and help general practitioners avoid incorrect prescriptions. For episodic patients, timing is everything: “The length of the cycle determines the approach.” Brief cycles with infrequent attacks are managed with acute treatment only. More prolonged or more intense bouts require preventives such as verapamil, sometimes combined with corticosteroids. A significant number of patients also receive a nerve block injection during a bout – an procedure into the area of the head where the pain is that reduces nerve signals.
The national guidelines need updating to reflect a